#oughh these two also make me so fucking ill

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Need to get back into the Villain Diantha AU brainrot again. Need some angst or wholesome stuff, doesn’t matter what

Only if you aren’t busy tho. I know you’re writing oneshots about the champions rn

Nah it's fine I'm taking a break from writing a bit since I already wrote two, I'm gon try posting em later and such hahah if I don't forget that is

Anyways yeah have some more villain Dia stuff that's been plaguing my mind too owo

Y'know have I actually like,, written stuff abt Diantha and Augustine's reunion or smth, cause like,,, if we're going w that one concept w Dia and Cynthia in the basement, then maybe Dia just said she doesn't want to keep Augustine waiting so Cynthia would leave too, and she wouldn't have to really hurt her

Idk how their reunion would go tho I want it to be like really fucking angsty but I also want it to be somewhat wholesome and it shows how Augustine can still pull out what little humanity Diantha has left within her

But like cndmdn imagine Augustine going back to the Carnet Manor, no one with him this time, bc the League was out finding Dia on their own too. Cynthia isn't w him right now bc of champions stuff, so he's on his own. The only pkmn he has w him is Garchomp, he left Xerneas w Calem again, thinking that if Diantha finds out he still has Xerneas, then she'd think he'd still attack her. So hey, now w his Garchomp, venturing the living room of the Carnet Manor. He never got to look around more, but now he did. There's a broken piano at the far end of the living room, and just on top of the fireplace there are some pictures coated with dust, some of the frames and glasses were broken, the pictures themselves were ripped and torn apart, leaving only Diantha's own face.

"why must you bother with those things, my darling?"

He turns and sees Diantha sitting on the couch, her usual attire without her white coat, and he could see the burnt purple skin of her right arm. "If you're looking for mother, she's right here." And she motioned to the ashes a few feet away from her, the one covering the burnt wood of the floor, the one covering that cursed C on it.

Swallowing a lump in his throat, he spoke, "Dia.. I've been looking for you.."

"really?" Came out almost a drawl, her eyes half lidded but it pierced right through him, "after you went against me?" She stood up and stepped closer to him, and he took a step back.

Augustine was terrified, Diantha never got mad at him, never. Even when he made countless mistakes, even when he rebelled against her when they were younger, she never got mad at him, never raised her voice, not even once. But this time he probably took it a step too far, he never saw such hatred in his sisters eyes aimed towards him before.

To his surprise tho, Dia pulled him close, hugging him, "oh, my darling... What have they done to you? What did they tell you for you to go against me? Have I not done everything for you?"

"of course you have, Dia. You gave me everything I ever wanted and more.. but.. but Diantha, this has to stop. You're killing people."

"have they not killed others as well?" Then she pulled away, looking at him, the intensity of her glare was petrifying, and he took another step back. Her looks softened, although... It felt like it didn't. It felt somber, it felt... It felt like she's so tired. "Arceus... Do you know how much I hate looking at you sometimes, Augustine?" And that caught him off guard, "you look so much like her. And I hate it so much. I was terrified that you'd be like her, so I made sure you won't ever be like our degenerate of a mother. I made sure you won't kill me with the same flames she used to burn my own skin." She seethed, then she turned her back to him, facing the ashes of their mother, "and yet here you are, here she is, still tormenting me even beyond the grave."

And Augustine finally sees them. The burns on her back. The same cursive C on the floor tainting the skin of her shoulder blades too. More burns littered across her back, on her spine, on her nape. It was horrific. His breathing quickened when she turned back to look at him again. Her eyes looked tired, she looked tired, and she cried. She cried, letting the tears fall, and it hurts his own heart seeing her like that, as this was the first time he ever truly saw her cry.

"I sacrificed everything for you, Augustine. Was that not enough? I only wanted this world to be better, so you won't ever get hurt again. Is that so bad?" Came out her almost desperate plea, and she watched her brother crumble before her words, his own tears brimming his eyes as he shook his head.

"Of course it was enough! Dia, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.." and he's there taking her hands, falling to his knees as he started sobbing too, choaking out his apologies. And like before, like when she just got custody of him, on their first night on her apartment, he clung to her, "I'm sorry... You're right.. I should've listened to you, you're only trying to make this world better.."

And Diantha buried her face on the crook of his neck, cooing sweet nothings as she comforts him, telling him how she forgives him for everything, that everything will be fine, and she's there hiding the smile on her face as she finally got her brother back on her side. And this time, she'll make sure the others won't ever get to him again.

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HI . GET ON THE DISSECTION TABLE. taking your brain RIGHT NOW OH MY GODDDDD. OH MY god ,,, everything in the zine,,,,,

obviously the quality of your work, the art itself is so good ,,,, but OUGHHGGGGHGH i need to bang my head into a wall until im unconscious . like the title itself, starting off . woe mama we are in for a fucked up roboty treat . your comps . your writing . in the most respectful and awestuck tone possible . i need to kill you

my favorite i think is how you draw gemerl ,, all the robots you nail their expressiveness but oughh ,, him in particular makes me kick my feet . 'you are everything i fear becoming' makes me actually tear the fucking floorboards up the themes of autonomy ,,,,,, ,,, and how you storytell through your comic panels,,, the 'what a fool you are to think the doctor is gone' panel set makes me drink 2 Monsters and eat glass

THE . THE IMPOSSIBLE GOAL COMIC RAGHHHHHH. FAV FAV FAV . geninely shaking and trembling looking at it like jesus thats so fucked up ,,, your mind . your writing is so everything !! i would love to get any insight for how you workshop it because it is consistently breathtaking it sticks with me so heavily,,, one time i accidentally stole a line of dialogue word for word from your Never turn back zine comic and had to change it dfhjd,,,,, (wow this line is so cool ! ...a little toooo cool. squint.) but yeah god the last comic wow,, your panel compositions are banger after banger you are so good at consistently writing evocative stuff,,, tragic, rlly funny, hopeful, its so inspirational

thank u so much for putting together such a cool zine, would love to have it physically one day !

GOD. THANK YOU SO MUCH THIS EDIT IS KILLING ME. this is such a rewarding ask to get, i'm so glad you picked up on these things!!

my writing work shopping style is. hm. a bit all over the place. i have a lot of thoughts about it i'll put under a cut if you're interested. there's a lot of little things i've picked up that help me out so so much that i would really love to share!

ok FIRST i should note that it took me so goddamn long to write this thing. like i had the very very VERY first concepts for metal sonic good future like. a year ago. the first scrawlings are literally in a notebook right after some thumbnails i was using for dance in fire and i was editing dialogue up until two days ago. i'm ill

BUT!!! there are a few things i like to keep in mind when i write/edit that have really helped me!

GET OTHER PEOPLE TO READ YOUR STUFF. ESSENTIAL STEP. i get stuck in holes with my work a lot and having beta readers and other eyes on this thing made it like a million times better

sometimes you have to kill your baby. there will be certain lines or moments that you ADORE that simply don't fit into the larger piece, and you gotta just cut it out to make it better sometimes. but usually this gives birth to an even cooler and more epic baby. or sometimes your killed baby is also resurrected later to be used in a different scene. does this make any sense

figuring out what emotion you want a scene to make people feel is very important - with this in mind, i also pay really close attention to how my writing or scene concepts make me feel physically. i think this is the thing that has helped me most with work shopping anything i want to be evocative. does a line make me tense my jaw? make my teeth vibrate? make my chest tight? do i suddenly feel the blood in my hands? if it makes me feel something within my body, i try to draw on that physical sensation when forming the rest of the scene.

ok this last one is. stupid. as i was wrapping up this thing i went through a final edit phase i'd call "Garten of Banban Vision." Garten of Banban is an indie horror game that has uhhh kinda mid dialogue. a lot of it focuses on exposition, and any emotion in it feels a bit hollow. with this in mind, i read through everything one last time and imagined like all of the lines were from a Garten of Banban game and spoken in the character's monotone voices. if the line felt like it could fit a little too well in the Garten of Banban world, i considered editing it. but if i started thinking "oh shit this is pretty good for a Garten of Banban game" i knew it was fine. do you understand what i was alluding to when i said my writing process is a bit all over the place

in conclusion. writing hard

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character ask um sona thouughffs perhappps 😁do soba. Sona :)

Greets Gekko!! and of course, im always happy to talk about my cancelled aunt, she is my pfp after all

Favorite thing about them

Oooh this one is hard... "Favorite" is a little too wide of a definition for this, so ill narrow it down to what hits the hardest for me, and that is most definitely, the "flawed mother" angle they were going for her.

Sona isnt perfect, as much as she wants to claim otherwise, she believes in ideologies that actively put Frisks friends in danger time and time again, and as shown, is even willing to act on them in the imperfect routes, but they still love and see the good in her, because thats what theyve grown up with their whole life, and for someone who has a mom in a pretty similar situation, that hit so fucking hard for me.

Sona... they could never make me hate you Sona...

Least favorite thing about them

I dont really understand the hair motif they were going for, it feels unnecessary, out of place, and compared to all the other powers she could have had in the concept art (Doll powers, omega form, ect) just feels... idk, boring to me? i just feel there was so much more potential for her.

Favorite line

"If you dont have determination, you have to fake it!" lives rent free in my mind. its the perfect way to show off one of her main ideologies, In Sonas mind, theres just simply no thing called weakness or imperfections, and anything that is lacking can be fixed right up like a doll, who cares if itll never be as genuine as the flawed and complex human being that they used to be?

Theres also the iconic "I only take the souls of children if they disobey me!" line, which i like for a lot less complex reasons. just, out of context funny lmao.

BrOTP

The possible relationships she can have with Dalv, and her relations to integrity are both very intriguing to me.

Like, for Dalv theres this whole thing with them that they are both flawed individuals who ran away from their problems in the past, but ended up with completely different outcomes (Dalv was ripped away from society, while Sona actively got herself involved in it) but also like?? for something fluffier, i like to imagine that Dalv is good with kids, and the idea of him running an orphanage with Sona is really cute to me.

And integrity... oughh, its seen both in the no romance endings and the perfect sans route of kc that Sona really cared for integrity (their ending having the most lore, only second to Justice because...well, uty reference, her giving them flowers in that one cg), So the idea of her in a uty scenario (cough cough kcy cough cough) finding out about what they did and their fate is a REALLY interesting angle to consider for me. so many thoughts, oh so many of them.

And then last but certainly not least, theres her and Chara which i feel like i dont talk about NEARLY enough but since this section is getting long, ill just end this off on that kc shouldve had more Sona and Chara interactions.

OTP

... Its Sonaroba, is anyone surprised.

Theyre so interesting and mentally ill and evil i need to put them in a snowglobe and shake them as hard as i can. Like, you have two woman who were both wronged by the world in some capacity, and when proven wrong, are so tunnel visioned that they basically just beg for death. only that one is past that arc and has learned to grow, while the other, despite having the chance time and time again, hasnt. They're two sides of the same coin, they're two different outcomes of the same person they're they're they're-

My incoherent ramblings aside, i also really enjoy Sonanny, they're the doomed old woman yuri ever and i refuse to take any criticism /j like, theres a reason Nanny is the only adult not controlled by Sona right? IM GOING INSANE-

nOTP

... Im actually at a loss for what to put here lol. I mean, i guess theres Sona and Sans, but its just so stupidly evil and toxic that i kinda just, thrive in it now

I guess her and Starlo?? but theyre not compatible anyway so i dont really get why people would even ship it to begin with.

Random headcanon

The hat she has in the concept art right?? i imagine she actually still has that hat somewhere, and wears it on special occasions like anniversaries and birthdays. its just so cute i cant help myself rahhh-

Unpopular opinion

Im actually not that familiar with what the major idea around Sona is since i only really hang out in niche spaces, maybe i should hang around Andrews community more-

But since "Sona isnt just some random racist mom and her character goes so much deeper than that" isn't really a fun answer, im gonna say that i think we (and by we i mean like, the twelve people in the kissy cutie community) Really dont explore her Mexican origins enough. theres so many fun things you can do with it like the original game does-

Song i associate with them

The main two songs i associate with her are Suburbia by Will wood and the tape worms, and ruler of everything by tally hall.

Suburbia in particular feels like her trying to fit herself and eveyone into a "generic" standard, and the ar-15 part in particular feels like Chara speaking to her like "cultures not your friend" and "Culture is more afraid of you then you are of itself", making it a duet between the Siblings?? ouggh can you see the vision.

And ruler of everything... oh ruler of everything my beloved, everything about it fits Sona so well for me, especially the chorus?? Ayaygdgyduhhuh

I actually was story boarding a ruler of everything Sona animatic, i lost interest since school started, so heres the rough beatboards

Favorite picture of them

The little full body Xan cut out lives in my mind rent free, like look at her guys shes so full of bliss and whimsy

Thanks for the ask!! sorry this got a little long lol, i am a yapper at heart

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easy books

war and peace was stressing me a little bit because the font they used in the book i bought is like size zero point seven or something ridiculous. and also even though its not as difficult to read as the historical biographies and whatnot that i normally read i was still having to go back and reread entire chapters because i kept getting the characters and events and words all mixed up right

so after i got 60 pages in or something i was saying to myself 'well im like. five percent done with this book now' so i deserved a reward and i was just going to reread JUST ONE wof book for fun (darkstalker legends. also it reminded me of how much i hate darkstalker and how much i absolutely love thoughtful and also indigo ps i also cried. maybe ill yap ab that book later)

but then after i finished that there were still a lot of hours left in the day and really what was i going to do, go back to war and peace after only two hours?? fuck no i needed a vacation you guys come on

so now im rereading arc two over again because its been like three or four years since the last time i did so. currently halfway through winter turning at the moment but you know what i earned this treat ok guys.

i havent sat down and read a silly easy book in so long (lie btw i reread the lost heir a few months ago but that doesnt count). like since last november i have been nonstop reading historical nonfiction grown up complex books so being able to relax and read a little kiddie small words book series like wof again is so oughh im literally cruising rn guys.

maybe ill buy the warrior cats book series because i only read the first arc of that and that was way back when i was in third grade. so like seven years ago jesus christ. easy books they could NEVER make me hate you

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Shotgun carousel oh my god the shotgun carousel oh my god

Saw VI Spoilers belowww!!!

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AUGGH OUGHH AHHHHHHHHGHHHHHGHHHHHHHHH

like compared to the other traps this is kinda tame cuz it’s just a shotgun and a fancy little merry-go-round but GOD

SIX THERE AND ONLY TWO TO LIVE!?!? MY FUCKING GOD

THE WAY EVERYONE IS LIKE LYING FOR SYMPATHY AND CALLING OUT THE OTHER FOR THEIR BULLSHIT BUT WHEN EMILY SAYS “I HAVE TWO KIDS THEY CANT GO ON WITHOUT ME” EVERYONE FALLS SILENT CUZ EVERYONE FUCKING KNOWS THIS BUT EVERYONE GOES BACK TO BRIBING, ACCUSING, BEGGING, LYING, ANYTHING TO GET ON WILLIAMS GOOD SIDE FOR HIM TO SPARE THEM OH MY GOD I AM ILL OH MYG GOD

AND JOSH OH MY FUCKING GOD JOSH I LOVE YOU JOSH YOU BASTARD THROWING EVERYONE ON THE BUS AND BEING A SUCK UP LITTLE PRICK BUT WHEN HE KNOWS HE IS GOING TO DIE HE USES HIS LAST MOMENTS TO SPITE WILLIAM AND OUGH MY GOD THIS HOMOSEXUAL IS KILLING ME.

“I DID EVERYTHING FOR YOU”

“LOOK AT ME, WHEN YOUR KILLING ME YOU LOOK AT ME.”

I DONT EVEN CARE JOSH IS A SHITTY PERSON AND ALSO HOMO AS HELL FOR WILLIAM

GOD THIS WAS SO BEAUTIFUL TRULY A HORRIBLE DISPLAY OF HUMANITY AND OF THE AMERICAN HEALTH SYSTEM I AM ILL, SICK IN THE HEAD EVEN GOD THIS IS MURDERING ME PLEASE EHELP ME THIS MOVIE WAS SO GOOD IM KILLING MYSELF OG MY GOD IT WAS AO GOOD PH MY GOD I AM ILL

THE ACTING THE SETTING THE WRITING OUGH OJHHHHH MY GOD OBY MGO GOD OH MY GOD IIHG I CANT GO ON OH MY GOD II CANT GO IANSJHAHHW WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH THEY MAKE KE ILL THOSE SEVEN ASSHOLES ALL OF THEM WRRE ON SOME LEVEL A HORRIBLE HORRIBLE SHITBAG BUT JESUS FUCKKKKKKK THIS MAKES ME SO ILL OUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGHHHHHHHH

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rewathed eps 3+4 on cs s1 j now (skipped the first two eps bc ik if i didnt id get sucked into a proper rewatch nd even then it was hard 4 me not 2 watch ep 5 but i had 2 stop myslef bc i need 2 sleep 2night GFHDFHSF) nd omg it was so good so fucking good like thoses eps arent even rly my favourite but theyre still so good esp comapred 2 s3 nd 4 FGFSDDGSD like one thing tht i love ab ep 3 in paticular is tht viles plan is so much more corporate like i wish they had that be a thing in the later eps nd seasons bc later on its kinda j like them being generic tv show evil yk ? also another great thing abt tht ep is tht like its so funny omg esp zack and ivy tho thts prob j tht ive missed them bc i havent rewatched an ep w them in so long but they rly are... nd the 4th ep omg... like carm wanting 2 help save the coin 4 the lady who was looking 4 it she is so beloved... nd then when she passed out nd she imagined tht lady was coach brunt she is so mentally ill DGHDJGH

OUGHH I DO LOVE THOSE EPS ur so right w the vile being more evil in a corporate way they shouldve stuck with that… and similarly ep 4 theyre evil specifically in like. wanting to steal an important cultural relic for money like. the show rlly makes a point of that and its just better than Uh Theyre Stealing Again…. AND YEAH THE CARMEN DREAM BRUNT GETS ME RLLLYYY GHRHRHHHGR